I just want to know
somebody one body my body
craves and quivers oxygen running
fast and and liquid breathing quickly
Shivering dots pop up and I see
stars exploding deep inside me
I’m holding on won’t let go
Your eyes caught mine now
I can’t look away.
Im in a bit deeper
as the seconds change
Unsure if you feel the same
or I’m just a game
you know, get that gina!
Fuck moving slow put it inside her!
Because it seems to me that
I was the only 100 proof
undiluted straight up true
One in nine million
two hundred seventy two
Thousand reasons your
words said the opposite of
What your actions do
You can’t be interested in time
spent with me I must not be on your mind.
You don’t think of me like, ever!
open my phone to a message like, NEVER!
The way I felt in your arms, just right!
You kissed me and held me perfectly tight
In your lap where you seat me
holding me closely and intimately.
The night ends without goodnight and the sun rises minus good morning.
It’s nothing there isn’t the message I wondered would come.
I’m not mad im not sad I’m just almost done.
It’s like you don’t mean to ignore and to hurt me
but you do so I’m obviously not a priority
If being around me was positive and right
you would want me around more than just late at night.
Pick choose and connect words Used to blur lines and my mind
This part and that part shared together at the same time
Carefully chosen in an order that’s meant
For me to get a bit more undressed.
No matter the promise of hands off and no sex
Im not sure if the beats in your chest
are counting for me or somebody else.
but until I know I won’t be around
chasing you down making sad sounds
pointing my eyes and nose at the ground
shoulders Hunched over and crumpled round
looking the way I feel by you, let down.
In the end I can only blame myself for hoping
I know that is silly
believing a man that makes me shiver
Was interested in more than just fucking me